Talking to her
How to start the conversation that doesn't end it. The setup, the opener, the listening half.
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How to start the conversation that doesn't end it. The setup, the opener, the listening half.
I rehearsed it in the car for a week. Driving to work in the morning, driving home in the afternoon, the same eight or nine sentences, getting more polished and more brittle each time. Friday night I sat down on the edge of the bed with the speech ready, and she said "what?" before I'd even started, and I forgot every line of it.
What I said in the end was, "I've been thinking. I want us to talk about us." Three sentences in, she was crying. The conversation lasted forty minutes. It didn't fix anything. It also didn't end anything. It opened a door.
Where and when matters more than what you say.
Not in the kitchen between things. Not in the car on the school run. Not in bed at 11pm.
A working list of acceptable settings:
Don't ambush her. The day before, say something like: "I'd like to talk about us, properly, this weekend. Not because of anything specific."
Don't read a speech. Don't open with "we need to talk".
A workable opener has three parts:
Sixty seconds of opener. Then stop talking.
The rule that matters most: listen twice as long as you talk.
The listening half has three rules:
If she's been waiting for this, she may have a lot. The first hour of being heard, after years of not being, often comes out as anger. It isn't the verdict. It's the pressure leaving the can.
Don't celebrate. Don't say "great, let's fix it then". Say "I'm sorry it took me this long. I want to hear where you've got to." Then listen.
She might tell you the marriage is in worse shape than you'd named. The first conversation isn't the moment you make decisions. Find a way to say "thank you for telling me. I need to sit with that. Can we talk again on Tuesday?"
You name it, she shuts it down. Don't push. Say "Okay. I might be wrong. I'd still like us to talk about us, soon. I'll come back to it." Then come back in two weeks.
You'll both feel raw for two days. Most marriages benefit from a quiet 72 hours after the first real conversation.
Set a date for the next one before you leave the first.
Set the time. Open the door. Listen longer than you talk.
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